Tell me something new, something i don't already know.
I'm Jingwen. It's common but my surname's not so if you really wanna know, I'm Cantonese although I can't speak/write/understand canto and I always eat potatoes (:Currently
it's kind of a bad timing but all of a sudden i'm panicking about the results like i'm getting them tomorrow. so nerve-wrecking that i want to hide in a corner and cry. basically any negative emotion makes me cry. that's the best i can do to express how i feel without physically injuring myself. but to make it clear so that i will not use various excuses to question why i didn't do well, i really did try my best. although i didn't have that exam feel and i studied only one day before, i really gave it my all. to be honest, studying in advance is worse than studying one day before. i don't think i was overconfident either. i knew almost every single math question but i made stupid mistakes like thinking too much and blanking out on the spot. i have that irrational fear too that everyone's gonna do well and achieve what they wanted and they're all going to leave me to go to a good school. i'll be there left to decide to choose a course that i have no passion about or a school that wouldn't leave me with any hope for the future. i've been thinking this way for a really long time already and most of the time i get sad that i'll be left alone to go to a new place without knowing anyone. my biggest fear is to be left alone.Sunday, November 28, 2010
2:46 AM
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